

Traurig, wie viele hier gleich anfangen mit “die DB ist nur nicht ganz unten, weil sie nicht die ausgefallenen Zügen…” Nein, ist sie nicht. Liest Mal eigentlich rein. Es wurden schon Äpfel mit Äpfel verglichen.
Abschließendes Wort von einem frustrierten Bahner: wenn ihr solch beschissene Regierungen wählt, braucht ihr euch auch nicht wundern, dass es so miserabel läuft.
I’m a somewhat feminine man myself, and man I hear where you’re coming from. And truth be told, you’ve managed to accept yourself the way you are earlier than I did. It took me a while to accept myself.
I also get the impression, though, that you have a traumatic response to the whole situation due to your upbringing. And it seems to me that that is something that you’ve accepted on the surface, but deep down, you’re still fighting with it. Which, by the way, is OK and normal. This shit takes time and work. If you have access in any way to mental healthcare, use it. You need to work through what you’ve experienced and learn how to deal with it better.
And I’m not sure I quite understood the situation completely - but if you’re still living with your parents, pull out all the stops to move out. As soon as possible. Otherwise, it will only keep dragging you down. As you’ve alluded to, despite all the shit happening today, there’s still a brighter world out there than what you’re experiencing with your family. It will be worth it, I promise.