I write as a hobby and am constantly thinking about my character and things he can say or do. A lot of it is funny, at least to me. So, I’ll either laugh, or I (apparently) have a very specific smile that I do, because my husband can always clock when I’ve had a particularly good thought.

But Hell is eternal. 9 million years or 15 million years is barely a drop in the infinite bucket.

Not my “parents”, but my Grandpa. When he wasn’t feeling well, he would say, “Feels like I’ve been shot at and missed, shit at and hit.”

Darkness from Legend was the first crush I can remember having.

The Piña Colada Song.

It enrages me. I hear the first note and I want to break a window. If it comes on in the car, I almost break my wrist with how quickly I turn it off.

A Monster Calls destroyed me. It doesn’t take much to make me tear up, but I was sobbing for the last 15-20 minutes of the movie.

I’m ashamed to admit it, but even though I was a very empathetic kid, I would probably be a terrible person as an adult were it not for the internet. I lucked out by having a best friend who wasn’t scared to have a blunt, honest conversation with me about some of my shitty views, but it was like planting a…not even a seed bc it was such a drastic slap in the face, but like a tree. And it was the internet that helped me learn more and explore ideas and metaphorically care for and nurture and protect that tree and keep it growing. Without the internet, the tree would have died. I had people actively trying to cut the tree down and poison the roots at every turn.

Today, it’s a good tree. I’ve done a lot of growing as a person for the better, and the internet had a big hand in that.

Was coming to praise the Ghost Pepper Wing Sauce. It’s so good on and in so many things, but especially a chicken sandwich from a local joint we go to on Wednesdays. I look forward to that every week.

A guy used this one on me, only he did the gesture and said, “Ha. Made you come with one finger.”

I thought that was the dumbest shit I’d ever heard in my life and bust out laughing.

But I guess it worked, bc we’ve been married for 17 years.

Play a house flipping game until my eyeballs burn.

Stromae & Pomme - Ma Meilleure Ennemie

Some days I just listen to it on repeat for hours.

I’ll definitely keep that in mind! Thank you.

I agree with a lot of the shows listed. I loved TWD but after the Negan stuff, I was so incredibly bored that I gave up, couldn’t get into Parks and Rec. Tried 3 episodes before deciding it wasn’t for me, etc.

But the one show I haven’t seen listed yet is Supernatural. I was obsessed with that show for the first 5 seasons (which was how many the show creator wanted it to go on for) and then it just became so unbearable and ridiculous that I completely gave up by season 7. This one died, but not really. This one died and got brought back - 3 times. This one swapped bodies. This character is actually this character, but SIKE! it was THIS character all along!

Give me a break.

Then it went on for like 8 more seasons and I just cannot fathom that.

It’s going well. My resolution this year was to focus on self-improvement and self-care. I started using the Finch app, which has helped tremendously. I’ve cleaned my depression nest, took steps to being more organized, started learning German again, joined a gym and am going consistently, and I’m taking better care of myself through diet and mindfulness.

The next step is tackling my anxiety by getting out of the house more, so my husband and I have been looking into nature trails and camping areas near us. Hopefully we’ll be jumping into that starting this weekend.

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