pretty quiet week so far. incidentally, next week is election week in most of the US, so don’t forget to vote on November 7th (and vote early if you can–my ballot just has to be dropped off)
I miss my mum. She’s been dead a few years now, and was elderly and in poor health. And I am a grown up. But sometimes I just want to be able to lay down next to her again and feel safe. I really miss her.
I will be ok. Just needed to tell someone. And if I tell anyone here in my real world they will want to make it better or something and it can’t be. It just is.
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My niece, who disappeared months ago (she lives off grid, in an anarchist community), has reappeared. I’m going to spend the day with her.
Apart from that, I’m using my vacations to help my partner in her craft business to prepare a fan convention.
Been trying to contact some of my old college mates after years. It’s difficult. Some have changed their contact info or even scraped their social media. Totally understandable.
I managed to talk to one person from our old group. He’s been fine, he says. We’re meeting for food and drink next week. Let’s see how it goes.
Busy week for me so far and I am knackered. Been out and about with work which is nice but it’s so tiring being sociable on a Monday, usually I work from home in my pyjamas. Finally got an answer regarding my salary, it’s not going down in April after all. I think appealing to my director did it, for a manager she is pretty great.
Performing in a concert on the weekend as well as doing a choral workshop so I will be amazed if I can speak on Sunday. Going to a work conference up north(ish) next week which will be fun. Staying in a relatively posh hotel overnight and cannot wait.
Son started having trouble breathing on Saturday around noon. Nurse line said take him to urgent care, urgent care doc looked at him for just thirty seconds before saying “Take him to the emergency room. Don’t bother with the local ones, go straight to the children’s hospital, they’ll just transfer him anyway.” Then we had a very busy four hours at the children’s ER where everyone was very serious and urgent and we’ve been in the PICU ever since.
So, not well.
I’ve been living with chronic asthma my whole life, I was born premature, 7 months specifically (also 10 days in a incubator), and ever since my lungs are terrible. When I was a young child my parents had to take me to the emergency room constantly because of asthma attacks and often I had to stay at the hospital under constant supervision. What I know is how it feels to not be able to breathe, but I can’t imagine how my parents felt. I hope your son is better now.
Thinking of you all. Let us know if there’s anything we can do.
Honestly, if you have some interesting longform articles that aren’t paywalled, I could use something to take my mind off the present.
No clue what you’re into, and the links in the “reading” folder of my bookmarks are all dead, but grabbed links to a few collections of long articles. Haven’t vetted them myself.
https://www.newyorker.com/archive
& a couple of youtube channels which go in depth and which are long & calming.
https://youtube.com/@GregsAirplanesandAutomobiles?si=bMdNUYd6KTEUp1up
https://youtube.com/@ChristianWilliamsYachting?si=z7kFysGzN0CLMvjF
Should have some direct links to articles come the morning. Here’s hoping you have some good news by then.
The news is an asthma diagnosis, which will be very manageable now that we know about it. He should be home day after tomorrow; it’s a shame he’ll miss Halloween, though.
Shit man. Any update? Did they at least figure out the cause?
Bronchiolitis brought on by rhinoenterovirus (aka. the common cold) intersecting with dormant, previously undiagnosed asthma.
Hey man, it’s been a few weeks and your post has been on my mind. How’s the kiddo holding up? How are you holding up? Hope all is well.
Out and happy. He’ll be on flovent for a couple years as a preventative, but no known triggers beyond respiratory infection. Sad he missed trick-or-treating but no lasting damage — fully covered by insurance.
Thanks for checking in.
I’m so glad and thankful to hear that. All the best.
I’ve experienced exactly the same with my son. He was in hospital for about two weeks but is now absolutely fine.
Really scary and distressing time, I still get wobbly when thinking about it… but the doctors and nurses will look after him.
I hope you’re doing okay. At least as okay as you can be. Don’t forget to eat and sleep yourself.
Wow, two weeks? I should count myself lucky. We’re looking at three full days, four nights in the PICU plus the half a day spent in the ER.
Eating, I’ve got no appetite. Plus he’s not allowed to eat or drink so I feel like I can’t do it in front of him. A neighbor brought soup in a thermos that I can take swigs of throughout the day. Sleep at least I’m keeping up with, though I’m exhausted and distracted all the time.
Thanks for your kind words.
I’m so busy with my work that I tend to forget to talk more on here 🙃 but other than that I have hope that thing will get better for me. Mentally and financially!
Hope you all are doing ok or better soon.
Magical, which would take too long to explain, and am off on an unexpected road trip later in the week with some new friends.
Feeling good, which is… weird but very welcome.
The fairies are real, people. The fairies are real.
Whatever you’ve had I hope you’re sharing!
Glad things are going well 🙂
I’m on my first vacation since 2015. Decided to treat myself to three nights at the ocean and the weather was perfect. I stood in the waves and just took it all in. Then I took a scenic train ride on a steam train and it was magical. No complaints.
Try and sneak more vacations in going forward if possible :) everyone needs a vacation
I’m at an amazing conference right now but feeling introverted at the moment so I’m here instead of interacting with flesh and blood people. :)
Not so great. My Grandma passed away a few days ago due to breast cancer. I got to see her and say what I wanted to say to her about a month ago but it doesn’t make the hurt go away.
I’m so sorry.
🫂 It’s been just over a month since my grandma passed away as well. It’s just so rough and especially cancer sucks, I’m really sorry for your loss.
Not too shabby. Weather is cooling off, days getting shorter, I love it. Work is good. Hired some random cat off the street a couple weeks ago, and while he may not be the most productive member of the team, he’s fitting right in.
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Losing my mind tbh
I have 3 days off this week, can’t complain! Halloween isn’t a big deal here but I took my son out early and got some sweets from the local shops. Not much at all, but he had a cool costume my partner spent 3 days working on. I felt bad taking him out early but we came back home and the rain came down, so we dodged that. Now we are getting some unhealthy fast-food delivered.
I felt so sorry for all the kids yesterday, trick or treating can’t be fun when it’s tipping down
